1 amitriptyline so long, goodbye by order of the pasadena court so long, goodbye 500 milligrams are needed everyday, held down by a pharmaceutical hand, are needed everyday, so we can regulate my uncontrollable urge remember me as I was, too much life, and oh too much love last week my lastly stunning stunt, top tier, my jumping chandelier that’s why I’m here… amitriptyline I was a quiet, lunchbox lonely little boy reading sci-fi, broken treehouse on the shore at nineteen the talking in my head got harder to understand, no work, no school, drifting, a failing satellite don’t feel sorry for me I’ve been happy too manic, kindly, blinding, high-res euphoria remember me as I was, the clowning judge, the crowning dove, sad king alone in the western wing holding foe’s laughing, severed head that’s why I’m here… amitriptyline 2 time travel is lonely hold on, keep it together hold on no one, no one has ever made it so far in time no one knows what happens next because time travel is lonely listen, wear your headphones, and I’ll whisper you the code 3 I Miss the War I wish the war was on, I know this sounds strange to you. I miss the war-time life, anything could happen then: around a corner, behind a door. I miss the canon fire, I miss the air strikes at night. Down on the basement floor, we held each other tight, it rained plaster, it rained glass, we held on for our life. I wish the war was on, I know this sounds strange to you. My poor crippled con, my sad one-legged Jew, I see what it's done to you. I wish the war was on, we really worked together then. Do you remember when you held the horse, I slit his throat, the blood ran, melting the snow? When the meat was carved the children screamed and the women cheered. 4 you were my fiji oh we kissed only once, in your stripped out apartment, You sold your furniture, so we kissed on the carpet. it’s like a whaling ship oh, is being on tour you know, next day you gotta set sail in your 350 Ford you were my fiji, o believe me those hours with you they only expand o you, you were my fiji o believe me but I fell in love with somebody else’s sand somebody else’s dry land you’re a stripper now, in new orleans fucking whale sank my van and took my shipmates into the sea. 5 speed lab speed lab, on the edge of an artichoke farm, we worked through harm tweaked and well-paid, we forgave what the chemicals did to our hands, lungs and face, clearly marking our fall from grace. speed lab, sun sang through eucalyptus, we sang along! Angela, I met her there, sweating out the San Francisco run every hotel on the five was our very own pleasure dive. speed lab givith and taketh away, the love, tender loving, money, money spending was before the fire, the DEA. Those who survived the fire fled alone, I know that God hates alchemical work, I loved him lonely, but in the end what else to do but begin again... speed lab 6 keep the dream alive one, two, three, five, the night is only half alive the curtains blow the frightened tress, they line the moonlit windy beach four five six seven, my dreams never touched on heaven, they come, they stream they laugh they bleed, they drop me off in a thicket of reeds keep the dream alive I dreamed he found his way back there, the campsite though was stripped out bare, the night was only half-alive skinned raccoons hung from a line for men there is no turning back, they all had left with coonskin caps, the embers smoked and barley glowed, he gathered wood and started his own fire keep the dream alive